After adderal

I’m at Brad's house right now, he is passed out behind me. I woke up at 10 and couldn’t go back to sleep,that could be because I was sleeping on the ground.
Last night Brad and I took adderal and played borderlands for 10 hours. It was crazy,but alot of fun. Theres not alot to say about it. We made alot of distance in it and I found that it is alot funner with two people. Also if you don’t remember what adderall is like I’ll sum it up. You are very happy and focused. You can almost feel endorphins throughout your entire body. And your dick doesn’t work,which suited me just fine. And when I was smoking E-cig my headache went away, well crap. I still don’t really feel they have any correlation.
So last night while hopped up on adderall I got a text from Sara. She was just telling me that scott pilgrim was on MTV. The conversation itself wasn't very important. I’d think that it would be just to talk to me if I was being optimistic. But in the typical Sara fashion she only sent me like five texts. It’s not that I’m some lifeless loser who has nothing better to do then think about her(which may actually be the case) But this morning when I woke up I got to thinking about our entire relationship.
I don’t know why I bother with her. She is just straight up shitty to me, and I let her be. I’ve explained it before(she is the person I just can’t get over blah blah blah). My main problem with it is I may never receive any closure. In movies and TV everything(unless the series gets cancelled or the writers are an ass hole.Fucking freaks and geeks.). But I finally realized that entire sad chapter in my love life is going to end open. I lose all hope in her and I ever becoming a we. But then she starts talking to me, just a little bit. And that gives me just enough to hope that something may ever happen. But I guess she has gotten better about it, it’s not like how it use to be where she actually talked about liking me. Maybe the problem is with me? Maybe I’m preventing us from ever becoming friends. But I don’t think I even want to become friends though?
I’ll finish this when I get home.
I’m exhausted right now. I’d go to sleep this instant if I didn’t need to go pick my mom up soon. So in the meantime I’ll try to not waste my entire day and write some. I’m going to attempt to go back to the previous topic of Sara. But I don’t think it will be worth while. My brain is basically useless, I really shouldn’t be driving.
Ok II can’t write about her.My brain isn’t think that way.I’m going to try and close my eyes and listen to six-seven times by flunk and see if I get any inspiration.