beer and getting cock blocked by a black drunk guy

Welp I have alot to talk about but I don’t even know where to begin. So I’m just going to rant aimlessly until my hands hurt and I go listen to laser time and play borderlands 2.
Song- 23 by blonde Redhead
So I have been searching for a job lately. I applied at multiple places and nothing has happened. But then  I applied at some gimmicky restaurant that is opening called mungo grill. I got interviewed and it went really well. So I told brad to go apply, he did and got hired. I did not so. I’ve been beating myself up in frustration over this. Everytime I try to do something nice it backfires and shit sucks. And well shit sucks. And I hate it. Nothing goes my way, which I’ll confirm in another story.
now playing: The XX-infinity
It was friday night. I had nothing to do. So I was watching some anime(sands of destruction to be exact) and playing lollipop chainsaw. When matt texted me seeing if I wanted to hangout. I said sure and he came over. When he got over we talked for a little when he asked what should we do. Joking around I said
“hey! We could go to cole mellons party!”
“Yeah we should go to that!”
“Okay, let me find out where it is.”
We went on facebook found out and headed out.
Now I don’t usually go to parties. It makes me feel uncomfortable. My idea of a good time is smoking bowls and playing mario party 3. But I just had to do something. I’m sick of being myself. My boring young self.
The party was out in the foothills in star. It’s about mid-october so it is freezing out. I made sure to put on 3 jackets so I’d keep warm.
On the drive there I felt my normal anxiety. I don’t normally associate with the kids I assumed would be attending. The dumb ass stoners. Something I have unsuccessfully strived to not look like. But that is not my problem, and I’m not letting this turn into an angry rant about that.
Anyways we arrive and I’m happy with the people I see there. Promise and all them and a bunch of other people I know. Layne minor, olivia haun roxy banner(I still think her name sounds like a pornstar name. and danielles twin cousins. I wonder if you will remember these peoples when reading this?
Regardless it sucks at first. Just a bunch of people standing around a dying fire. I say something about when is the party suppose to start.
“Cole is still coming with the beer, don’t worry.”
I am worried. Since I’m driving home I can’t drink. I don’t even like drinking. Really the only reason I came was for woman which at this point there was only five and none of them fuckable sober. I smoke some cigarettes at this point people are leaving. If this party ends I’ll be pissed for wasting gas.
When all of a sudden the booze arrives! At this point the amount of people there seems to triple and some much needed energy comes to the party. Within the first five minutes everyone is falling on there ass drunk. 60+ beers are drunken in this time. Roxy comes up and hugs me, almost tripping in the process. A prime target to be taken advantage of, not that I would. I make a few jokes about boobs when black guy chris comes running up to me.
“duudee!11! You just missed some titties.”
I’m heartbroken.
“damn dude who? I need to see some tits!”
“I’ll help you dude!”
We walk up to some obviously drunk woman.
“Hey! show him your tits!”
I approach in a ration matter, explaining me and my cause. I explain that I can’t drink tonight for I am driving and if I don't get any titties I’ll go home depressed and defeated. She finds this hilarious.
At first she refuses. But then she told me I could put my hand down her shirt. I put in slowly, expecting her not to allow me in the bra. But I was wrong. I feel those tits for all they’re worth. I still don’t know her name.
Meghan oberry comes stumbing up to me,obviously plastered.
“CAYDUNN, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! THIS FUCKING KIID RIGHHTT HER EVERYONE IS AWESOME!”
I thought I had already talked to her that night but it turns out it was just her sister who is equally as drunk. I talk to her for a while when I decide to go talk to the boobs from earlier.
I find her and say
“so about you flashing me.”
She gives me a confused look and asks what. I explain I’m the guy from earlier who put his hands down her shirt. She didn’t remember. The stupid woman had already forgot. she wasen’t very hot but she was easy and stupid. I figure if I got desperate enough I’d go back to her later.
Through talking to mehgen I find out there is an attractive norwegian foreign exchange girl at this here party.
“introduce me!” I cry out.
We go talk to her for a while and we really hit it off. We sit close and talk about different stuff for a while. A few times I resist the urge to kiss her. I eventually get her number for a date. While talking to her the other drunk girl from earlier comes up and is fondling all over me. I push her off out of fear she’d scare off peea. That was my first mistake.
So I quit talking to foreign girl when all of sudden this annoying black guys walks up to her and starts making out with her. At first she tries to push him away, but then gives in. At this point I was ready to leave the party, I was so pissed. Roxy told me they fucked later in the night.
So I’ve been pretty depressed over that. I mean that sums up how my life has been lately. But you gotta roll with the punches even though I haven’t been able to get back up. Today I have been trying to cheer up. I watched a few episodes of seinfeld which which gave me some much needed laughs. I played alot of borderlands 2 today while listening to talkradar and laser time. Which helped. Right now my main goal in life is finding a girlfriend. Something that has never come easy for me. I think I just need to start actually playing the field. Not just hoping to be thrown on it.
I’m writing my short story, it’s going on fine. I’m not doing any of it today. I’ve had enough writing.  

useless

I got a job interview at a restaurant called mungo grill. I feel as if it went very well. But I don’t think I  got the job. Glass half full blah blah blah. I’m suppose to get a call tomorrow with a yes or no.
My brain has not been flowing well with writing lately. I’ve been wanting to write some fiction but it hasn’t been coming out. It’s a damn shame too because creativity I’m going on all cylinders. I’m hoping this will get me back on track. I have a science fiction short story that is ready to come out. In short it is about a nerd who creates an android girlfriend. A perfect girlfriend. Only for her to kill him because he isn’t perfect. That is just the short version. But my hands have been feeling lazy lately. Just earlier I was playing some blazblue calamity trigger and my hand started to hurt. It is hurting right now.But I’m enjoying writing so I shall continue. After I eat.
I’ve been enjoying the stuffing out of anime and manga. I watched BAKA AND TEST and really enjoyed it. I’ve been reading bakuman and enigma. I really like well drawn anime. It is beautiful and it turns me on. Just kidding...Kinda. I don’t really get off on hentai. I’m currently torrenting “the girl who lept through time” and next it will be “the place promised to us in our early days” and “5 centimeters Per Second”.
Today joey kept on making homophobic remarks. Naturally I was pissed. So I turned around and said “If you keep on saying bad stuff about gay people, you will never get a girlfriend.”. This made the girls laugh. I e


I stopped to start writing the short story

gabbey

I’m going to talk about the girl I wrote about last time. I’m in mr.Rhode's class avoiding doing the math homework that I don’t understand. And by writing this he will think I’m actually doing homework. I’m drinking black tea and listening to comfortably numb by pink floyd.
So where do I start. The relationship is confusing. I don’t know where it is. Well I do know, nowhere. It is like the number 0, empty but full of potential(I hope you remember what that is a reference to).
She broke up with her boyfriend about a week ago. I was in jubilation when I read it on facebook. I liked it hoping it would kinda send a message to her. but I don’t think she picked up on it. Also when I told her I liked her on facebook she didn’t pick up on that either. This made me beat my head against the desk.
But the next day I was walking in the hall with her after math and the conversation was really warm. So I brought it up. She told me that there was someone at this school that she liked. At first I felt defeated. I mean it’s possible that she was talking about me and she just isn’t direct. But then again, it’s never me. I do think she might kinda like me, or at least consider me. This all happened about a week ago. And there have been no sign that she is in a relationship yet. Nothing on facebook and I don’t ever see her talking to any other guys. And I feel like that is a sign in my favor.

It’s odd because if she broke up with her boyfriend for someone else than I’d expect them to be going out at this point. So it could be me. usually if I have a feeling a girl likes me its true. This is backed up by sara and britta. I don’t get the feeling very much... So today in math I’m planning on doing what I do best eavesdropping. I’ll put my headphones on and listen to what her and danielle say. If gabby likes me she would tell danielle. So I’d assume they would talk about it. Even if its not about me they will talk about. I’m thinking about telling danielle that I like gabby. Telling another woman seems to help get the ball rolling. If it doesn’t I’m just going to have to take matters into my own hands and be a alpha and tell her. It’s better than sitting around wondering if she thinks of me.

pink floyd the great gig in the sky

I mean goddamn she is cute. I ordered ultimate marvel vs. capcom 3. Me and brads past time is getting stoned and playing video games. Games that included in this is black ops zombies, super smash bros, new super mario bros, halo 3, doritos crash course challenge. But the game we play more than any is mario party 3. I could not even begin to count the games of that we have played, It’s a damn fine game. But lately we have been playing alot fighting games. Mortal Kombat, persona 4 arena and most recently the original marvel vs capcom. So I’m rather excited for it to arrive.

I’ve been watching alot of great movies lately. So I’m listing these movies for you to rewatch.

Drive

Trainspotting

Scott pilgrim vs the world

The evil dead trilogy

Kill Bill volumes 1 and 2(3 will be out eventually, just not yet)

Kikis delivery service( rewatch all the studio ghibli films.)

Blue velvet

gattaca

And remember to replay catherine. I don’t own it so I’m reminding you specially.

Also persona 3 and 4. I love those games so much.

homecoming the return of the sadness

I have one thing on my mind, but nothing in my heart. That would be a great beggining to a poem.But I don’t think I have one in me. But I did right one that was passable in english the other day. But I came to talk about love and relationships
It is homecoming week. Naturally I’m dateless and depressed. I tried to ignore it, but my mom kept reminding me. Trying to get me to ask someone, anyone. But my shell is too comfortable to leave for just anyone. After the scarring events of the last time I asked someone to homecoming. Fucking sara with some buff guy. To hell with her. But I’m not letting her turn this into a rant about what a beautiful bitch she is.
So there was this one girl in my math class that I was thinking I could ask. But then I found out she has a boyfriend in utah. That was when I realized that she is fucking retarded. But she is very cute and she likes anime. Did I have any other choice than be a dick about it? I’ll explain it after I go make some chamomile tea. I can’t write without tea.
I waited until the moment was right. I knew I would only be able to get away with it once. So I knew that I needed to be swift but fair. I needed her to actually contemplate what I was saying instead of just being mad at me. So in a friendly manner I said “So where do you realistically see the relationship going?”. It appeared friendly enough so she did not get defensive yet. She said she wants to go to college where he lives. Keep in mind that she is only a sophomore. So then I went straight for the throat, which I should've saved for the grand finale.  “So you don’t think he won’t meet anyone in the meantime?”. She had no proper rebuttal, how could she? I then went at her again “Do you want to spend your entire teenage life in a strictly platonic relationship?”. At this point she is stupefied. She knows I’m raising valid point. She manages to mumble out “not exactly.”. I go for the coup de grace and ask “Is it a fulfilling relationship?”. She gives no exact answer nor did I expect her to. It is quite for a moment before danielle can’t handle it and says “wow cayden, you got serious!”. Then gabby laughed and said “it all seemed so bad!”. I didn’t say anything. I knew all I would do was just step on my own feet. I did not intend to be malicious. I just knew if I could get her to seriously think about these questions I’d have my way. But I think she ignored them, because she knows I’m right.
About ten minutes ago I posted on her wall “I like you.” vague but revealing. I do not know what I expect to get out of this, but it should be interesting. I’m going to stick to my guns. If she asks me what I meant I’m going to spell it out loud. She is an attractive girl who likes anime.