I consider writing a slippery slope. Often times egos and persona’s get in the way of actual good writing. Some people write merely to sound deep. And that's why some writing comes off as cliche. It also seems like some people write out of hopes to some day see someone quote them. Now I'm not going to lie, It feels fantastic to see this happen. But this shouldn't be ones aim when writing. One time on facebook i saw a girl quote herself on her own status. I laughed my ass off. Come to think of it, I'm worse than they are. At least there doing something. All I do is judge other people and then judge myself. It entertains me. So i don't have a problem with it.
I don't know why i write. I never like anything I write. People tell me my writing is good. But i just assume that they are trying to be nice. And that just pisses me off. The main reason I write is because i enjoy it. When I get really into writing it’s pretty similar to sleeping. I have little to no control over my body. I don't have to think anymore. It just comes out, I cant control it. I lose all sense of my environment. If I'm listening to music, it just melts Into the background. I don't have to actively think of typing even a little bit. My fingers fly. I often find when i get interrupted from this nirvana like state I don't know where to begin again.
I also write because I'm a very untalented person. I'm not the type of person who is good at everything they try. I'm under the impression that I'm not a horrible writer. I think I can be an average journalist when I'm older. I've been flirting with the idea of writing a novel. I don't think i can be the next Phillip k dick by all means. But I think I have some pretty good ideas. And by journalist i really mean critic.
There is a negative enigma around judging people that i don't understand. Everyone tells themselves/others that they don't judge anyone. And in my opinion They are lying. It is human nature to judge. Its a defense mechanism. I mean I try to talk to people before I decide I don't like them. But often times I don't have a choice. If your annoying me when I'm not talking to you I don't expect things to change during conversation.
I was planning on talking about something else. But it is slipping my mind. So it cant be that important.
Never mind i think i remember it. But I'm not sure if i remembered the right thing.
Any who( I hate myself for saying that), I decided I need to work on my grammar and spelling. I read an old thing i posted on the blog and i was constantly cringing. But ill probably just skim through it missing most things. When i read through this again it hit me how much I is used. and to make matters worse its usually used after and. How do blogs get big? Or noticed. I have twenty nine page views. So far I have only told one person about this blog. If your reading this Danielle, hello. But that means that 28 other people have viewed my page. Or she has viewed it 29 times? It says blogobo is my highest source of traffic. What the hell is blogobo? I guess Now I'm going to investigate all the traffic here. The fact that people is coming to this blog is scaring the shit out of me. I didn't expect anyone to read any of this. I had thirteen page views yesterday. That accounts for one. It could have something to do with the fact that something was posted yesterday. I really need to figure out how blogobo.com works? I have four views from Germany and three from Russia, That's pretty cool! I can see all my traffic sources through an option. Blogobo is the bread winner but there is also a site called bllog.tk. But when I try to go to it, It has been suspended for copy write violations. Hopefully he Stole my content. That would be an ego boost! But only four of my views have been from both of these sites combined, Weird. My most viewed post is Bad poem. Of course its my bad poem. I think the fact that poem is in the title is what brought people to it.
Well that is all I have to say for now. Remember to have your pets sprayed and neutered.
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